General

When I'm trying to review my life in few minutes to figure out which event was the happiest one, this leads me to redefine happiness according to my perspective.

I feel the word happiness is very vague and general. Sometimes a person is surrounded with fake feelings and he may pretend to act happy.  Sometimes he accepts his life as is, and in a very normal day he might feel that he was truly happy.

Sometimes you find the people surrounding you, love you and you know you are important to them (your spouse, your parents, your kids or your friends). Perhaps when there is a goal in your life and you are working to achieve it, the success and the charity in your life cause a combination of satisfaction of what we are doing in our life and gives us the feeling of happiness.

Maybe in social events, I can't appear natural. I find myself to be a very fake person, and once I discover that I'm uncomfortable, I try to appear normal but also in a fake way.

So most probably in social events, I can’t enjoy myself except if I spend the event with the people whom are close to me and similar to my personality.

I remember my farewell party in my previous work before immigrating to Canada. It was very organized, everyone came and tried to express how I was very important to them and that they will miss me because I would leave the country. I felt how indeed they were speaking from the heart. When you feel that your bosses, your colleagues and the owners of the company appreciate your efforts and your progress with them, I felt two opposite feelings: the first was that I am really happy and on the other hand, I felt I am not worthy to have this great value in their hearts.

To sum everything up, I can find true happiness in the community of people who really love me.