Parenthood

These have been crazy days.

Since I found I was pregnant again, it has been a roller coaster of emotions. I'm happy that’s for sure but at first, the only feeling I was feeling was uncertainty. 

There are a lot of things that people who were born here don’t know about living far from their family. I'm pretty sure that raising your kids is the most difficult thing to do when you don’t have the support of your family near you. And it gets even worse when you have to work or study. 

When I met my husband, everything went so fast that I never had the opportunity to think about not having my family near me. Thank God with my first kid things went better than I had expected, and I consider myself very lucky to have a very supportive family.

My dad came a few months before my second baby's birth. He has been very helpful, and he even let me sleep a few minutes (even hours) while he took care of my toddler. He has been cleaning the house and even bought groceries, and then my mom and my sister came in December, and my mom won't let me carry heavy things or do any household chores. After 3 months of her being here, they are now only doing some of the  cleaning, cooking, and caring for my toddler. They pick him up and drop him off from the daycare, do laundry, and prepare things for my husband. And with the cesarian section, my God they were like angels to me, but the most important thing, they were here for me. 

Now that the baby has been born, they take care of her while I'm in school. I don’t know what I’m going to do when they leave to go back to México. We are going to miss them that's for sure, but life goes on and the only thing  I can do is be grateful to God for the family I have.

Now I can imagine why someone could get postpartum depression having a newborn can be overwhelming. Being alone while you have to take care of a baby and yourself must be very difficult and more work when you have other kids. It is sad as in most cultures being a mom is not appreciated.